Brenda's Blog

The Unpopular but Wonderful Cross

2012-01-13T09:29:00.000-08:00

Over the last two months I have been reading an amazing book called, 'Born Crucified,' by a Mr L.E. Maxwell, who I'm sure is now with the Lord Jesus. What a wonderful tool, used by the Lord to sharpen my vision of exactly what happened on the cross of Christ, and what that 'looks like' to each of us a followers of Him today.
It becomes clear that our destiny, in being like Him, is also to 'fall into the ground and die.'
Most of us, when first beginning to follow the Lamb, go through the process of Romans chapter 7, where the Lord in His faithfulness opens our eyes to the absolute wretchedness of our condition apart from Him. Little by little He gives us glimpses of the 'flesh' within; the 'sin' that dwells there, and to which we have been addicted since our birth. We find ourselves going through cycles of 'falling to temptation, repenting, experiencing some victory, but then falling again.' It feels like a downward spiral and we gradually become clear that we are hopeless unless He does something; so we find ourselves crying out in complete despair, "Wretched person that I am, who shall deliver me from this body of death?"
As horrible as we feel at this point, I can just see our Lord going, "Yes!! That is exactly the point we needed to come to!! Now you can begin to truly see the victory you have in ME!"
This is the epiphany He is looking for; and for which we are now prepared. HE has been working all this time; knowing that our heart was actually divided. We were not, until now, wanting deliverance from the flesh...not with our whole heart! But now we are ready to 'take the grace' offered to us.
The cross is never something God 'forces' upon anyone, but He will orchestrate our circumstances, and speak truth into our hearts until we 'choose to stand absolutely with Him'! As the years have gone by, I have come to the point in my life where I praise Him that He has never let me go! He is most intentional in His purpose; in His vision for each of us...and how we need to co-operate with this Almighty One Who has been operating in us.
When the Lord first revealed to me that I had actually been crucified with Christ...and that He now lived in me; I did not realize that I had not 'attained' to this truth in the actual living out in my daily life. No! Far from it! But that vision was a marvellous beginning!
Truthfully, I could not even 'see' that the details of my daily life held circumstance after circumstance that was ordered by my Father's hand. So I fought them...until one day another epiphany! The Lord opened my eyes to see that these circumstances and situation were completely of Him, and that He was watching my heart to see if I would "humble myself under His mighty hand." He also revealed in the same verse, that He would "exalt me in due time" if I would co-operate humbly with Him now.
I wish I could say that I let myself fall into the ground at that moment; and I do know that there was a change in my attitude. For that day onward I was more completely aware of His Presence in all these things, and I began to 'press through anything that would keep me from it.' He had brought me to the point of 'wanting His life flowing within me' more than wanting 'my way that would 'cut off' that flow.'
In looking back to my childhood I can see a little girl who was completely unaware of the journey that lay ahead...blissfully unaware that life would hold devastating heartaches at times; that it would not go the way of my imagination. I now see though, that those things over which I had no control have gone completely and only as the Sovereign hand of my Father has allowed; that He is 'head over all things; even the evil.'
My Savior took the way of the cross voluntarily. He could have refused at any time...but He did not; and because of that we too are now free to obey Him. He will not force us, but He faithfully says that if we suffer with Him we will reign with Him for eternity. We forfeit our fitness for this Kingship when we choose our own way. But what a trade off; some suffering here for an eternity of 'reigning with Him.'
"Lord Jesus, thank You for choosing me. This is joy unspeakable and full of glory."

Jacob claims his inheritance

2011-11-20T18:28:00.001-08:00

This past week while my husband was sharing something about Jacob, I felt the Lord jump within me about a truth He began to show me!
It's found in Genesis, starting in the 28th chapter.
Jacob had made some bad choices; sadly, with the help of his mother.
He 'grasps' (as his name means) his brother's birthright by means of deception and lies. As anyone could imagine, Esau, his brother was not happy about this. After threatening to kill him, Jacob and his mother decided it would be a good time for Jacob to go back to his Uncle Laban to find a good wife.
What I was seeing here, is that our old nature is much like Jacobs. We may have good desires, but do not wait for the Lord to open the ways and means to achieve them. Instead, deception and lack of honesty manifest themselves in us...and a big mess is created when we take matters into our own hands.
Instead of confessing and humbling himself, Jacob leaves; but on His way God meets him that first night and, strangely enough, gives him a promise. "...the land on which you lie I will give to you and your descendants. I am with you ...wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land..." Jacob responds by 'bargaining (28:20-22) with God. "If You will be with me, and keep me...and give me what I need...if you fix my problems with my family, then You will be my God...and I'll even tithe to You." Although this is a start, it doesn't sound very humble.
So Jacob goes on his way and meets his uncle Laban. (His name meaning has something to do with 'making bricks.') They make a deal that Jacob will work 7 years for Rachel, which is fine with Jacob, but...the morning 'after' his wedding he wakens to find that he has married 'Leah' instead.
Laban says, "No problem...just stay and work another 7 years, and you can have Rachel too." And so, we see that God has brought a greater manipulator into Jacob's life.
After twenty years of working, and having his wages changed 10 times!! the Lord also stirs up some bad feelings between his cousins and himself. At the same time the Lord also speaks to him again... "it is time to return to the land of your family." (Jacob thinks this is a good idea!)
Because he knows that Laban will not be happy with his leaving...and taking his wages with him (a multitude of sheep, goats, and other animals); he leaves suddenly while Laban is not at home.
This speaks to me of how entangled our lives can become; how in bondage we can be to others. But, now Jacob is ready to leave!! He is determined to take his inheritance. And this time he does have God's direct speaking about it! When Laban does pursue, God also warns Laban not to harm Jacob. God in that way defends His called one. Thus a pillar of stones is set up (31:45-47) as a testimony and a witness of Jacob's new freedom.
This, however, is not the end of the story as he then comes close to brother Esau's territory again. Jacob is gripped with fear as he hears of his brother's 400 men. He sends generous gifts ahead, but is not sure this will be enough to pacify Esau. In 32:9-12 there is the record of Jacob crying out to God...and this time there is great humility as he says, "I am not worthy of the least of all the mercies and of all the truth You have shown me..." He also reminds God of His promise to him. "YOU said, Return to your country...and I will deal well with you."
That night the Lord comes and wrestles with Jacob until dawn, finally touching his hip socket so that he limped the rest of his life.
Again, this shows me a wonderful truth, in that God works in us, His called ones. He brings circumstances and people into our lives to press us; that we will cry out; that we will seek His promises, so that He can change us, so that we will know that HE has dealt with our old messy nature, and has given us a new one. HE is able to do this...and none of us are too hard for HIM!
The following day we see the sweet meeting between Jacob and his brother. God was absolutely faithful...and Jacob discovered that when he pressed through his fears to obey what God told him to do.
This whole story is to me, a picture of the transforming of the old to the new. We, His believers, are new creations in Him, and that is an abolute truth. HE will help us 'claim this'...'walk in it'...'appropriate it'...'experience who we are in HIM!!'

Abiding in the Available One

2011-11-09T14:13:00.000-08:00

Recently, well since September, I have been going through the book of John with several sisters. This past Tuesday we covered chapter 15 which is very much about the Vine, the branches, and the abiding. There were several things that deeply touched me in this portion.
First of all, that Jesus likens Himself to the Vine; something that is not so high, not difficult to reach; never unavailable. This is our Lord as the Son of man, not yet seen as the great King. He comes to us and makes Himself so approachable!
That blesses me! But the grape vine has no magnificent blossoms and no useable wood. It's purpose is simply to produce grapes that are nourishing, thirst quenching and enjoyable to eat. This is the kind of Saviour we have and this is the kind of fruit He produces through us as the branches. Because of our 'pride of life' we so often mourn our lack of 'gloriousness', our lack of gifting or intelligence, but really...the key here is simply to stay 'abiding in the Vine.' The focus is the fruit that flows out, not us.
In verse 7 of this chapter Jesus goes on to say, "If you abide in Me, and My words, (My 'rhema') abide in you, you will ask what you desire and it shall be done for you. By this My Father is glorified that you bear much fruit..."
In the Greek language there are 2 meanings for 'word.' One is 'logos' which is the written word...and oh how we need God's written Word! But the other is this 'rhema', and that is His Word uttered, spoken into us. This may happen as we read the 'logos', the Bible day by day; but He also speaks into us throughout our days. This is His marvellous, wonderful Divine working in our hearts!! As we co operate with these impressions and leadings, which by the way 'never' contradict the written Word, we find ourselves refreshed, even energized! We are brought into a deeper, more intimate awareness of the Presence of the Lord, which is exactly what we were created for.
If we say 'no' to His leading; if we wilfully disobey Him, we as the branches, insulate ourselves from the Vine and begin to feel withered, deadened, dried. In this state we are then unable to produce any fruit.
If we 'bargain' with our Lord one inch when He may be asking for much more, we find ourselves limiting, restricting Him from His abiding, His settling in, His making His home in our hearts.
I have found myself in this state too often, and that is sad to me, but...finding myself like this causes me to cry out to Him, to draw near to Him, to seek Him. Kind of like the Shulamite in the Songs of Songs when she refused to open the door right away to her Beloved and He withdrew His Presence from her. (5:2-6) I am so glad we have Philippian 2:13 "for it is God Who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure." Because of His mercy and great love and purpose for His children He works in us. He draws us to Himself. My prayer is, "Lord Jesus, do work in me that I would quickly respond to Your drawing; that I would not lose Your lovely Presence in my life."

2011-09-25T16:09:00.000-07:00

Can it really be March since I last posted anything!! I just seem to be out of inspiration...at least when I do have the time to sit at the computer. (am seriously considering getting my own lap top, so don't have to wait for hubby to be finished with his notes and studying)
We've had another very busy gardening season; and even though there was no rain for about 4 weeks, the corn turned out extremely well again. The potatoes...well, let me just say that I am glad there were only an average of 3 or 4 under each plant! (The first year Dave planted spuds we had about '3 tons!!') We do have a very generous God! At this time harvesting is all done, except for a few carrots and tomatoes. It is really enjoyable though to freeze and can and make pickles. If we can't eat them all, we do know others who will be glad to help us!
And now, at the end of this week Dave & I are headed for the west coast again; to visit our precious brothers and sisters in Vancouver. Dave will share some gospel messages in an outreach they are having. I am sure the Lord will bless! We will also have time to visit with my loved ones on Vancouver Island. I always look forward to that as well. What a blessing to still have my mother; relatively healthy, and oriented! She will be '87' on this next February.
I have to say that the Lord has been so encouraging to me, in the Church life here. I have been such a hesitant, doubtful, anxious person in so many ways, because I didn't know if we have His 'smile' on us (Dave & I); but it seems we do...definitely not because we deserve it, but because He is so very merciful! "Lord Jesus, You do keep winning my heart over and over and over!"
Now that I'm writing there is much I can say. I only have a little time before running off to babysit grandchildren (one of the joys of my life), but I would like to say that I am thankful again that the Lord has once more reminded me to Praise Him!! "in everything." Something is released in me when I choose to do that! HE has planned it that way! When I praise Him for situations and circumstances and people in my life I am totally free from anxiety or depression and doubt! And...this is what He has come to do...to set the captives free! Yes!!
If anyone does read this, perchance...please write me a comment. Thanks.

A Sweet Thought

2011-03-12T08:08:00.000-08:00

Over the last month we have been able to spend part of the winter on the warmer west coast with family who cared for us; and then down in Arkansas with more family who cared for us. The warmer weather was such a treat, but...probably the highlight of our trips was the time spent 'coming forward with boldness to the throne of grace' with others. And...that brings me to the rest of this blog.

Lately there have been two topics that have impressed me. One is the matter of prayer. Have you ever felt as if you just couldn't pray?? Perhaps there was a feeling of 'numbness'...just no burden on your heart. Perhaps there was a sense of 'futility' with the thought,"this really won't make any difference." Perhaps what you felt was even worse; a sense of 'condemnation'...that you were such a poor believer you may as well just not try to pray.

I have felt all of these at times. But just lately I have had the realization that behind all of this is our enemy. witHe is afraid of our connecting with our Father in heaven...hence throws alot of these fiery darts at us.

This realization serves to make me more determined to 'press through' to the throne of grace in a daily way. There is a battle going on, and whether we like it or not, we are in it. Praise the Lord! HE has actually defeated our enemy (and HIS), but it is up to us to discover this...and HE helps us. Remember that little verse, "...Christ in us, the hope of glory." Not only is HE praying for us in the heavenlies; HE has also installed HIS very life within us...and this is so much more powerful than we realize!!

So...with this thought let us "press on!"

Just this morning I read the verses in I Timothy, chapter 4:15,16: "Meditate on these things; give yourself entirely to them...continue in them, for in doing this you will save both yourself and those who hear you." How about those for encouraging and exhorting words!!

The other thought that I felt very worthy of writing about is this...we have a perfect 'DAD' now!! Just think about that!! Maybe our earthly fathers fail us in many ways. They have character flaws; they are too busy with life to notice how we need correcting, loving, and training is so many details. They lack the ability and the power to address all our problems. They are unable to protect us all of the time. BUT...and 'this is a very big but' to muse on and to consider. If we have received the life of the Lord Jesus Christ we are now 'children of GOD!' (John 1:12)

Think about that!! We do, right now; this moment and forever, have a perfect 'DAD.' This ONE has all the power to do something about our problems; our flaws. This ONE has all the knowledge to know 'when' and 'how' to deal with everything we will go through in this life. This ONE says HE counts the very hairs on our head, and calls HIMSELF 'LOVE.' HE, (our heavenly, forever 'DAD') is perfect love. That is the kind of love that knows how to perfectly train us the way we should go. That is the kind of love that doesn't miss even one detail of our lives. HE can see into our very heart and therefore knows 'exactly' what we need. HE has an 'eternal' goal for us...much bigger than our life on this earth! HE is shaping us for eternity with HIM. Oh, how we need the bigger picture! Don't we get so bogged down with our tiny vision; focussing only on this uncertain life!

"Abba, Father...please touch the eyes of our heart, that we could see and know YOU...and really TRUST YOU day by day by day."

Why do we Suffer?

2011-02-03T12:56:00.000-08:00

We have so much to rejoice over as believers. We've been made alive in our spirit by the Holy Spirit; 'begotten' to be God's children! We have an inheritance reserved in heaven for us! We are being kept by God's power during our time on this earth! We can enjoy the Holy Spirit right now in our lives as love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control...quite the list!
But, there is the word, 'longsuffering'. Some have translated it 'patience,' or the ability to endure something that is not so pleasant; not instantly gratifying.
I noticed that in the book of I Peter, it first describes what we have to rejoice over, it then quite quickly goes on to say, that although we rejoice in the blessings , "...now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials..." We have all been 'grieved', made very sorrowful by some trials in our life. They can really hurt! And sometimes they continue for years.
Why?? Well, the next verse tells us one of the reasons; "...that the genuineness of your faith...though tested by fire, may be found to the praise, honor and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ." There is something more precious about our faith, after it has endured testing. People say that 'mere talk is cheap,' but there is hard earned respect after we have stood firm in the face of a trial. There is some glory even in this life, after we stand in trials but, on 'that day,' when we stand before our Lord, there will be a 'well done!!'
This first chapter of Peter goes on to point out that our Saviour suffered. We know that before His glorious resurrection, there was a very painful death. I think there is a pattern here also for us His followers. We so much want to experience the life of our Lord within, and in our daily life; and we need to. The following chapters in I Peter reveal more of the 'why.'

After entreating us to live a holy life; one that is separated to Him; the next chapter continues with this theme, again entreating us to put off those negative traits of our old, sinful nature; then to come to our Lord, drinking in His Words like milk so that we can grow spiritually.
He says that we are free and yet 'bondservants'; another word for 'slaves'. But in this case we belong to a wonderful Master. We are again entreated to be submissive to HIM.
And then the word 'suffering' comes up again. He calls us to be submissive, and then goes on to say that "...this is commendable, if because of conscience toward God one endures grief, suffering wrongfully."
"...if you take it patiently, this is commendable (that word again) , acceptable before God." The Word goes on to describe again how our Lord suffered for us, leaving us an example that we should follow in His steps." When He suffered, He did not threaten, but committed (meaning 'to keep committing') all to the One Who judges.
God's Word even tells us here that "...to this you were called...Christ...leaving us an example, that you should follow in HIS steps."
I have admit, that the trials that I have gone through in my life have definitely purified my soul. In so many ways I no longer 'think' the way I did before; I no longer struggle with as many negative emotions as I previously did; and my will is more submitted. Did I fight against my Lord when the trials came? Yes, often I did. One of the main reasons is that, at first, I never knew they were from His hand, for my eternal good. I had not seen some of the wonderful truths buried in this precious little book called
I Peter.
Am I perfected now?? No; I have not 'arrived', but there definitely is some brokenness; more contriteness; more humility than in my earlier years.
One more truth I have discovered is found in the last verse of chapter 2.
I now realize; I see that I have been returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of my soul. An excellent Shepherd knows exactly what the sheep need, and watching carefully. HE is restoring our souls.
And...one of my favorite phrases: "It will be worth it all when we see Him."

I will Thank HIM!

2010-11-19T12:34:00.000-08:00

These past 4 weeks we have begun to go through a seminar on basic issues of life. The material covered is extremely helpful, and even though I have heard it before, truths reviewed are powerful!! We heard about the principle of God's 'design'...how it is He Who has made us, and therefore we can thank Him for our uniqueness...even for those things we didn't really appreciate.
We reviewed the principle of 'authority'; how authority is something God has arranged; how wrong responses to it can cause huge amounts of suffering, bringing very negative strongholds into our lives.
We saw again the way to have the Lord restore the ground that we in our ignorance often give to the enemy. We saw the importance of making appeals with a meek and gentle spirit because God is over all, and will deal with any injustice.
We went on to the principle of 'responsibility'; the understanding of the importance of keeping our conscience 'up to date.' (even if we are only 5% to blame in our own eyes.)
From there we progressed to the principle of 'suffering;' something that often causes bitterness to take root in us. We were led through how to 'let all bitterness be removed...' and replace it with 'forgiveness.' (not 'pardon' as that is something only an authority can grant.)
This past Tuesday we covered the principle of 'ownership.' This involves giving our rights and our expectations to God. Many times we become angry or depressed because we are focussing on our 'rights' and our 'expectations'... and it truthfully may be that they are not being met. We were reminded that all we have and all we are, rightfully belongs to HIM, not to us. We were reminded of the need to 'dedicate' all to Him Who loves us and wants the eternal best for us.
Because of this, can we not trust Him to "work all things together for good while we love Him?" If that is the case can we not 'thank Him' in all things...even those which seem bad. This whole matter of thankfulness really touched me, and I realized that I have given place to the enemy here. How I determine to express thankfulness and gratefulness to Him in all things, is so very key to my experiencing His peace. Seeing this does not automatically bring me into the experience. No; I will have to 'purpose in my heart' to win this battle. I have confessed the ground I have given and has asked the Lord to take it back, but I will have to co operate in this!!
I will need to re establish a new habit of thankfulness...in the middle of my situations.
Some verses that will help me: I Thess. 5:18 "In everything give thanks ; for this is the will of God..." Eph. 5:20 "giving thanks always for all things to God..." Even so Lord Jesus; that my life would express the fruit of joy and peace.

Back Home Again

2010-10-22T17:49:00.000-07:00

Fall...what a wonderful time of the year to travel! Even the flat prairies are beautiful with all the various shades of the golds, browns, greens, and the blue sky! What a vast expanse of land we are privileged to view as we drive along! Grain farmers scurrying with their combines to get the harvest done; countless grain bins to hold the produce; and long trains with cars waiting to be filled...all are part of the picture as we continue our journey.
And then the mountains! Slabs of gigantic rocks rising into the sky, and this time without snow; all except the very highest one; vast acreage again but this time consisting of carpets of trees covering the mountainsides. To add to the beauty of God's creation there are tamarack trees with their golden needles, standing out in sharp contrast to the dark evergreens. There are bight yellow leaves on the poplar and aspens, glorious in the sunshine; and rivers of clear water rapidly running in the valleys and cascading occasionally down from the heights above!
Slowly we navigate the sharp turns, the steep hills; stopping occasionally for the never ending construction sites, for highways in these torrains are in need of constant repair.
At last we descend into the Fraser Valley with its preserved farmlands, lush and green from the plentiful west coast rains. And there at last, glimmering in the autumn sun, is the ocean! So much water, and teeming with life: seals, orcas, birds of all description, and of course delicious salmon, shrimp, and cod.
The end of our journey: Gabriola Island where the saying goes, "You come for a visit and you stay for a lifetime."
That's a lovely saying and it may be true for some, but we have come to visit our dear family. My '85' year old mother has recovered from the bleeding in her brain almost miraculously, and even though a bit weaker, is alert and lucid! What a blessing!
Several assignments during the visit this time, and all given with a bountiful supply of grace from the Author and Perfector of my faith. Thank YOU Lord!
Thank 'You' for another visit with my sisters, my brother, my mother, and all the other relatives that have become quite numerous out on the west coast...the land where your camera can find a postcard picture without even trying.

2010-09-05T19:52:00.000-07:00

Today was out first sunday back, after Dave's 4 week holiday...so nice to see our dear Church family!...and what a wonderful meeting time together! The message was helpful, and the testimonies were wonderful too! "Thank You Lord."
Strange (or is it?) that I was wakened at 3 a.m. during this past night with accusing, condemning, and very negative thoughts; such as "you and Dave are failures; your life is counting for nothing; you have no positive future for the Lord..." and on and on like that. Fortunately Dave woke up at that time, and I asked him to pray for me, which really helped!
And...wouldn't you know that the main theme of this morning's message was: "there is no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus..."
Rob brought us to Nehemiah chapter 8 where the people were sorrowing; probably feeling condemned after hearing God's Word for 6 hours and realizing they were so far short of what they had been called into. Isn't that how we feel so often?! So far from what our Lord wants of us. How sweet to read Nehemiah's response; encouraging the people not to mourn nor weep. "Do not sorrow...do not be grieved...but that "the joy of the Lord is your strength."
Yes...there are battles, and yes...they are painful and difficult, but...when we cry out to our Lord and re focus our attention on Him there is victory!! Romans 7 ends by the cry, "O wretched man (woman) that I am, who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God--through the Lord Jesus Christ!"
Jesus has come to deliver us! 'He' in us is our living hope; our hope of glory!!
Too often I look at myself, or another and see the failures...and am robbed of my hope. My hope is not me or someone else. No...my hope is in Him!! He brings the victory! He is my hope of glory! He lives in me to bring this!
As I speak of these truths, my spirit within me leaps! ICorinthians 15 talks of this again at the end of the chapter. "Death is swallowed up in victory. Thanks be to God Who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ!" The very word 'victory' implies a battle; but how sweet is the taste of victory after the battle!! How sweet the foretaste of what will be eternally for those of us who follow the Lord Jesus!
Just this past week one of our precious grandsons looked right at me and said, "I can't eat that."(meaning the main part of his supper) But...he did want the dessert in front of him. A little battle to overcome a lie. With loving but firm help from his father the little guy was in fact able to eat his dinner and...oh how he did enjoy the dessert! What a picture for me. There is often a battle to 'take the cup' the Father is giving to me. Nevertheless, not as I will but as He wills.
Hebrews 12 says that "Jesus...Who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross..."
After each battle we draw near to Him...and there is joy; there is hope; there is victory!
I will end by saying that I am so thankful for the miracle of Church life! for the miracle of God causing people to grow in their walk with Him! I saw it again today. He is faithful and amazing!
"Lord, please keep my focus on YOU."

Life Flies By

2010-07-28T10:13:00.000-07:00

Life flies by. Someone once said, "Life is what is happening while you're waiting for life to happen."

How to live in the 'now'...that is the challenge! How to be all 'here' and not in yesterday or in tomorrow. How to 'know' the Presence of the Lord moment by moment.

I have begun going through the book of Luke, for my mother, as she has said that is her favorite book. As I write a short summary of chapter by chapter, the Lord is impressing and speaking to me by what HE has written there. It is good! My mother has recovered, but will remain in a Personal Care home to receive 24/7 care which she does need, and...is thriving under. She is trying very hard to adjust and to appreciate the positive aspects of where she is. We love her very much, and will evaluate how she is coping over the next two months. It is our desire to honor her in her old age. Meanwhile she has agreed to put her property up for sale...after 61 years of living there. Now, that is an adjustment!! She is actually being a marvellous example to us, her children, with her attitude these days! I am so looking forward to seeing her face to face in the fall!!

But...back to the book of Luke. How edifying it is for me to go through it with the view of sharing with my sister and my mom! There's just something about sharing truth with others that makes us dig into it; and therefore get so much out of it! It seems that every time I read through the life of Christ again I am struck with how little I 'know' Him. HE is so deep and yet so straight forward. There are just so many layers of understanding to 'see' and to apply.

"Lord, I continue to ask You to keep my heart open to You, that I may grow and be vessel that honors You until I see 'YOU face to face.'

From then 'til now

2010-05-31T13:15:00.000-07:00

This is definitely the longest break between blogging. I have been a bit scattered.
In February Dave & I went to Gabriola Island to help celebrate my mother's '85th' birthday! She did really well, and as usual, it was a great opportunity to visit with all my family members as all by me, live out there now.
Then in April we took the opportunity to visit Mexico for a week; to 'Barcelo Hotel' in La Jolla de Mismayola just south of Puerto Vallarta, to spend the time sight seeing and visiting 2 couples we met over 30 years ago! What a lovely break and a lovely blessing to be with others who have continued to continue with HIM!! As our first trip to the south during a Manitoba winter I can now understand why people do it!! Wow! To sit in an outdoor restaurant with no sweater!! Too good!!
We had just arrived home and two days later I received a call from my family that my mother had had a bleed in her brain, and it might be an aneurism. Within an hour I was at the airport and soon on my way to Vancouver. The Lord was so kind to me...allowing me the use of a lady's cell phone during the trip and giving me strength physically to be up most of the night in the Vancouver airport while waiting the catch the earliest flight to Nanaimo the next morning. I really sensed HIS divine supply! Meanwhile my mom had no real discomfort, just very sleepy. I stayed there almost 2 weeks, until I could see that she actually was stable. Since then, she has made a very slow, quite uncertain recovery and will be panelled to a nursing home.
I am so thankful that 4 of my siblings, plus other relatives care for her so well!! as I cannot be there now. Dave & I hope to go again later this year.
It is a bit surprising to me how much this has affected my emotions...so easy to cry lately; but losing a mother is a bit like dying myself as we have been so much a part of her. Throughout my life, I have been blessed with such stable, loving parents! I know that alone is something to thank
God for, but to have had my mother positively bless me for '62' years is amazing!!
Our main concern is that she would know for sure that the Lord Jesus is living in her heart; and actually it seems that the 'bleed' knocked out some of the intellect that has somewhat hindered her from simply trusting and not worrying...kind of like a Divine laser surgery?
"Simple trusting everyday; trusting through a stormy way, even when my faith is small; trusting Jesus that is all."..."Lord, please bringing Your Divine healing to my heart."
Is this not the prayer we all cry out for at times?? Loved ones leave either through death or through circumstances, or through disappointments/misunderstandings...and it all hurts; very much! HE knows all about it, and HE says that HE cares...I believe HE does.

Death Produces Life

2010-01-25T15:52:00.000-08:00

Today while fellowshipping with a dear sister I was reminded of the verse in Job 13:15 "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him." There is another verse in II Corinthians 4:12"So then death is working in us, but life in you."
Back in 1981...that would be 29 years ago!...my husband and I were led by the Lord to leave the west coast and move to Winnipeg. We were involved in a wonderful Church life there and felt impressed by the Lord to be His vessels, to build up the same kind of Church life in this 'new to us' city. Because there was such confirmation in us, and in our fellow believers I had no fear to do this. It was an adventure with our sons! Everything would be well! That was 29 years ago this summer. I am not sure I had discovered the above verses in the Bible at that time, but my heavenly Father knew that I would be experiencing them in the years to follow.

First of all I was hit with such a wave of homesickness and loneliness, which did not go away for 2-3 years. This place was so different from what I was accustomed to. The group we met with here was so small; and so varied...Ghanians, Chinese, Malaysians, Spanish and a handful of Caucasians...what a motley crew we were, and so few of us with English as our mother tongue...and yet the Lord was with us and slowly the group grew.
In the early 1990's there were rumblings of trouble amongst some of the churches in other cities, but we purposed not get involved. My husband, one of the leaders here, tried very hard to avoid controversy, but...it came to us as well. There was a major 'storm' in the over all fellowship and to make a long, sad story short, my husband determined to leave it all behind. He abruptly stepped down as a leader and was blacklisted by those who did stay.
Overnight it seemed I lost all my 'sisters'...precious ones with whom I had prayed and served for 20 years. The bottom fell out of my world. I couldn't die, but I really didn't want to live.
Have you ever felt like that? I could not fully understand my husband's decision and that made it more difficult for me. I respected his headship over me because I could see that he was sincere, but could not truly see that He had the mind of the Lord in his decision...and that tore my heart apart.
I was dying, and I knew that that had to happen to disciples of Christ, but I always thought I would have HIS peace in the midst of every storm. Even that was not to be for more than short periods. For six years we wandered in home groups or visited other Christian works in the city, but never had an 'Amen'..."this is where you now are called to labor."

The Lord then drew one group to our attention. The pastor spoke in a 'life giving way'...and my husband and he began to have wonderful fellowship together. This pastor began asking my husband to speak at times and little by little, the Lord awakened within my husband a willingness to give himself again. At the same time the pastor was slowly withdrawing from this fellowship, and my husband and I were experiencing a deep, growing concern for the people. It seemed to be a 'burden that God puts on someone's heart.'
And then...our world shifted again because as this pastor stepped down the people asked my husband if he would consider stepping in.
Although we both said 'yes' to this call, my soul was fearful and so easily troubled. Could this work? Was the Lord really in charge of this? So many questions.
But all this pressing made me go to the Word as never before. I had to cling to what HE said, in order to have any peace at all. Sometimes we do have to just take one step at a time.
And this month my husband begins his 'tenth' year at this place. Has it been easy? No! Have we done everything with the mind of the Lord? Probably not. But...today there is life among us! Joel 2:12 says "..the Lord, your God is gracious and merciful, slow to anger and of great kindness."
What a wonderful Father we have!! HE does give life after death!...and we get a foretaste of that in the here and now!
Some have said that our life here is like the under side of a work of embroidery. That side looks messy and confusing, but the top side becomes a beautiful pattern! One day when we are with HIM, it will all become clear. "...now we see in a mirror dimly...now we know in part, then I shall know just as I also am known." It will be worth it all when we see Jesus. Life's trials will seem so small when we see Him. One look at His dear face, all sorrow will erase. So bravely run the race 'til we see Christ.
"Lord, thank You for Your work in me."

Reflections

2009-12-26T20:24:00.000-08:00

The end of another year in a few days...that always motivates some reflection time. This was made easier by a letter I wrote this evening to a friend I have known for '40' years! Wow! Amazing to observe her journey thus far...sometimes living closeby and sometimes far away, but keeping in touch over the years. Tonight she is planning the funeral or as we call it today, the celebration, of her husband of '39' years. After a brave battle with cancer the Lord took him home at the age of '60.'
But there was such victory in their lives. Forty years ago they were clever, but dumb about life. He had had a major drug problem, and she almost lost her life in a car crash...and then they turned their lives over to the Lord Jesus. Still there were many battles to be won.
Why keep in touch with someone for so long? Why such deep affection for my friend after so many years?
There may be many reasons, but one of the main ones is that she and I were 'sisters'. We were closer than friends because we could cry out to the Lord together; we could pray and play and serve Him together! And that builds up something eternal; something that never goes away throughout the years and decades. If we would visit today we could pick up where we left off...as if there were no time in between. Why?? Because we are still treasuring the Lord's sweet flow of life! "Thank YOU LORD, that such a thing is possible, because YOU are faithful."

Blessings & a great mystery: Christ and His church

2009-11-27T17:37:00.000-08:00

Okay, so now I am the ripe old age of '62!' That is really hard to believe! Although my back & my hip hurts sometimes, and I have other mild signs of deterioration I really do feel great most of the time; blessed with lots of energy. "Thank You Lord!" Hopefully I can enjoy the same health as my precious mom who will turn '85' in February...but the Lord is the only One Who knows our future.
I thought I might update a few areas; some of which are answers to prayer.
Jim & Vera have found and moved to an amazing place! They found a house with an extremely large living/dining room area; only 20 years old and located on 120 acres of wooded land! They (and me too!) have already enjoyed several bonfires to clean up around the house. It will truly look like a park when they are done; although 'done' is likely not a very accurate word when one speaks of such a large area. The house is heated with wood & electricity, and it looks as if they will never run out of trees to burn. Dave & I are blessed in their blessing!
Bart & Bethanie have begun building a new bungalow on '40' acres just north of us. It will be alot of work, but Bart is gifted in that way and can do much finishing, thus saving significant amounts of money. Brad; Dave & Tom too (the grandpas) are also able and willing to assist in many ways. If all goes as planned Bart & Beth will move their family into the new home in late spring. Then Brad & Amy will sell the home they are now in, and move into Bart & Beth's present dwelling. Thus all three sons & families move within a year of each other.
Dave & I are encouraged to see the needs being met so wonderfully!
My brother who lost part of 3 fingers is now back at work! I'm impressed with his perseverance.
Our friend who had treatment for leukemia is home and in remission and doing very well!

The Church fellowship continues to overwhelm me with the manifestation of the Lord at work in hearts & lives! The brothers opened up the microphones for testifying and the atmosphere week by week brings us all to His Presence...as if we are experiencing a revival or as Dave & I prefer to say; "breakthroughs!" Andrew Murray writes, "...it is the Father, in Whose hands are the times & seasons, Who alone knows the moment when the soul or the Church is ripened to that fulness of faith in which it can really take and keep the blessing." (With Christ in the School of Prayer)
Ephesians 5:32 says, "This mystery is great, but I speak with regard to Christ and the church."

We definitely do not understand God's timing but oh how beyond words when His Presence comes in a corporate/church setting! It is a wonderful mystery; really beyond our ability to fully comprehend. We sure can enjoy it though!!

2009-11-07T13:05:00.000-08:00

Reading recently through the book, "Touching Godliness Through Submission" (K.P.Yohanan) I have been helped again to really see that our Father is in control of my life! What a rest that produces! Because HE, my heavenly Father, is trustworthy and all powerful, and cares about me I can rest. Just reading again through the lives of David & Joseph it becomes clear that testing follows the anointing of the Spirit. But..after successfully enduring the tests, and both at the age of '30' they both reign!
What a picture for us today! If we endure with Him, we also will reign with Him! This is not 'instant gratification' but a very long range plan with an eternal view. With this vision and view in sight, it is absolutely possible and sensible to deny 'self'; accept the cross (the situation or thing that is putting 'me/self' to death); and to follow the Lord Jesus. This is definitely not a theory! This truth is essential/basic to the experiencing of a victorious Christian daily life!
Yes, we will fall, but we can get back up and 'run with patience the race that is set before us!'

This past few weeks in the Church have been so very encouraging! We are challenged too, to see in a fresh way, that we must "put off the old nature." We must resist the fiery darts of our enemy in the spiritual realm! Oh...we can let him run over us if we like, but why would we do that?
Mostly we do it because we truly do not see his lies and twisted half truths. So we believe the feelings that come as a result of a thought fired into our minds; and those feelings become our defeat! We begin to shrink back instead of coming forward to the throne of grace.
What an unrelenting battle we are in; and yet we are seeing people break through these strongholds of the mind to touch the wonderful Presence of our Lord!! That is joy unspeakable and full of glory!
Last Sunday one of the young men spontaneously rose up to sing "He touched me" and he sang it with his whole heart...completely free from the concern of what others thought. His heart was so obviously focussed on his fellowship with the Lord Jesus Who had met with him this past week...and rescued his mind (hence also his emotions) from a miry, despicable pit...and he was overflowing with thankfulness! Another sister got up and sang a song that the Lord had given her and that also was so precious it brought tears to my eyes.

Jesus said HE came to set the captives free...and that is us! Free from the old nature...free to come into His wonderful Presence...free to actually live there...and we are learning to do exactly that! What a foretaste!! And to have this corporately is beyond encouraging to me!
Thank You Lord!

I have also begun to reread a book on Prayer by Andrew Murray. He obviously prayed through the Word of God, and received wonderful insights line by line; truth by truth. It motivates and encourages me to pray 'believing prayer.' Another small book by Watchman Nee: "Let us Pray" as well, has been a great help in the last month. He was a brother who knew how to 'fight the good fight of faith.'

Lord, You are so very good! We do not always understand, but that is okay. You are love itself and You are good! Even what our enemy means or meant for evil, YOU mean for good! You, Lord, are able to take even the bad; the ugly and turn it together for good when we love you.
And thankfully, love is not just an emotion...love is a choice! A choice that we will come to you, no matter what! Kind of like Shadrach, Meshach, & Abednego did when they passed the test they were put into. They refused to give in to a lie...and said, "If we die, we die." They were absolute in their obedience and God honored & blessed that!! May we have the same mind in the tests our Father in heaven allows us to have.
As I see others being brought to the 'end of themselves' I know that after 'death of self' will come a glorious resurrection taste!! I also know that God is able to; is even now working in us both 'to will and to do' for His good pleasure!
I am already glad He has not given in to my prior kicking and screaming when He put His hand on my life as 'Lord' and not just as 'Saviour.'
My words; my writing can never completely convey the exulting joy that is now in my heart from being worked on by the One Who is able.
May any who read this be strengthened with a clearer vision for eternity!

GOD is good...all the time

2009-10-02T18:05:00.000-07:00

Okay, now we're into October...emphasis on the 'berrrr'. We have had a frost and there's a definite winter feel to the air, but oh what a wonderful September!! Apparently the warmest on record! Dave & I have been so very thankful as we have just had to go to the end of our driveway and sell delicious corn and potatoes grown in our back field!
Our ladies' retreat was so encouraging. Our precious sister Kathy, was such a helpful vessel in leading the Bible times through the whole book of Hebrews. How nourishing just to read it, muse over the passages, and share what the Lord impressed us with. The atmosphere right from the first meeting was so relaxed and free! The sound of sisters in the Lord singing was heavenly!
One of the verses that touched my heart was in the last chapter: 13:8 "Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever." It seemed that the Lord adjusted my heart to trust HIM as HE reminded me that 'HE is the same to me today' as HE was in my yesterdays...and HE will be the same to the young sisters I get so worried about. HE is able to make them stand! The emphasis over and over in Hebrews was to 'go on'; to 'come forward'; to 'lay hold' and not to 'shrink back!' We have the very speaking of God, the Almighty Ruler of the universe, so we need to earnestly 'heed' what HE says. We were encouraged over and over to get into HIS Word so that HIS Word could work in us. Yes!
The other book that has been quite gripping to me is Ezekiel. In a day when most of the speaking of God's attributes is that HE loves us; this book reveals that HE also is just and must deal with sin and with disobedience even in HIS children. He says in Ezekiel 39:7 "I will make My holy name known in the midst of My people...I will not let them profane My holy name. Then the nations shall know that I am the Lord..." It is more than clear in the Old Testament that our Father will deal with us if we wilfully disobey Him. He will also adjust, discipline and train us so that we will be conformed to His image and not to that of our 'old sinful nature'...that same sin HE took it on the cross with HIM. And it is clear that HE cares for HIS name. And, yes, HE does love us absolutely. HE loves us enough to not let us stay in our old way of thinking, of feeling, or choosing; and in transforming us we experience more and more of the glorious freedom we are destined for! I'll admit that I did some kicking and screaming when HE put HIS hand on me the first time, but I love HIM for it now! I love HIM for not giving up on me!
There is another book I am being moved by: "Touching Godliness Through Submission"by K.P. Yohanan. That is a zinger, but I love it because our brother makes so clear that our Father is absolutely in control of this earth and of my circumstances! I will write more of this later.
I will say now though, that the need to submit definitely exposes rebellion, pride, and fear.
True submission is in the heart, not just an outward conforming; and to truly submit we need the Divine life! over and over and over.

2009-09-14T20:42:00.000-07:00

Wow...hard to believe I never posted anything in August! I think we planted too many veggies this year! Whew! For quite awhile it seemed the garden would be a 'wash' because of cold and extremely wet weather. I actually prayed a few times,"Father, if YOU want to drown it, it is Yours." because it seemed HE was planning to do that. Anyway, our wonderful Lord has sent warm, sunny weather way into September now, and we have maybe 'thousands' of cobs of tasty corn! We have actually sold enough to almost pay for all the tractor repairs done earlier and presently. Ahh...farm equipment and farming! One of Dave's friends used to say, "If I had a million dollars I'd farm until it was all gone!" I'm sure some make a good living at it, but I have noticed how extremely vulnerable farmers are, and they become more acutely aware of how little control we actually have in life.
Soon we will have another ladies retreat. There is quite a bit of planning, but others are helping as well. A number of us are praying much that the Holy Spirit would really be poured out as we get into God's Word. Life can be so very serious at times! What a spiritual battle we find ourselves in! Even though we know (at least in our mind) that our Lord has won the war...the feelings & thoughts can be absolutely overwhelming!!
One thing I have noticed though; when the pressure mounts the 'drink' of HIM is always tastier.
Now that I am one of the 'older' women, it is so easy for me to become anxious over the younger ones. I see so much more clearly the obstacles in their way. I see so much more clearly the needs, the areas that need to be overcome. But in all of this...all of us really have the same need!
We need to "see Jesus." Beholding HIM; coming to HIS Presence gets me through everything!
I have been majorly inspired by reading a book this summer by Major Ian Thomas. It's a wow factor book in the way he so clearly helps us see the need of having our minds renewed by what God says!
Another book that has greatly impressed me is Gisela Yohanan's "Dear Sisters". She and her husband K.P, have given their lives to obey HIM. The fruit of it is beyond amazing! "Thank YOU, Lord, for all the faithful ones on this earth even now. Thanks YOU, for showing up when we meet together!!"

2009-07-30T19:12:00.000-07:00

We in Manitoba have just experienced the coldest June in a hundred years! Meanwhile on the west coast they are apparently having our weather. Two of our sons and their families just returned from the journey out there and had an absolutely wonderful time! It seems my sisters and 'great grandma' lavished alot of TLC on them all! Their joy becomes mine, as that is how it is when a person 'turns into' a mom and a grandma.
Last week I had the extreme privilege of speaking to about 80 ladies on the subject of being baptized! The Lord really 'downloaded' His Spirit into me and then just 'flowed out!' I have recently enjoyed a book by 'Watchman Nee' called "A Living Sacrifice". He spoke at a conference in '1948' because he was heavily burdened that the new believers around him would learn the truths in God's Word.
The Lord has been impressing me that this kind of teaching is extremely necessary as most people do not know very much of the Bible and it is only as we 'know the truth' that we find true freedom.
Reviewing the topic of baptism and then speaking about it was wonderful for me! All the reality of what happened on the cross became so much clearer again! The Lord Jesus took all our sinful, depraved nature on to Him so we do not have to live there anymore!!! The problem is...if we do not 'see' this truth we can not 'claim' it. HE also completely defeated our enemy and HIS; the devil and all his 'helpers.' How can I write this to convey how powerfully this 'reality' has changed my life! I no longer have to allow sin to have 'dominion over me.' I no longer have to allow sin to 'rule' or 'lord it over me!!' I can speak out and declare what GOD says!!
I am a new creature in Christ; old things are passed away; all things have become new!! I (the old sinful me) have been crucified with Christ!
This is true whether I 'feel' like it or not...and how powerful to 'declare it out loud!'
Getting baptized is just a public declaration of these truths. It is taking our position to 'come out of the world' and to identify with what our Lord has done. Yes...we will continue to see more clearly as the years go by, if we keep coming to Him in His Word. Oh how I wanted to encourage those ladies to "take their position!!" This is ours to take if we have received eternal life which is in our Lord Jesus. If we have received Him we are HIS child, with His authority in us!
Whew!! Isn't that good!! These are not just words...these are truths!!
However, it is kind of like an inheritance; if we don't know about it, it's a little hard to 'claim' it isn't it.
That brings me to another verse that really touched me lately again.
"I have no greater joy than to hear that my childlren walk in truth." (IJn. 4) To walk in truth one has to learn the truth. This takes time and it takes persevering.
What does it look like to 'walk' in truth. Well; I'm sure a big part of that is our conduct/our behavior where ever we are. When people see us do they see HIM?? Do they see HIM in what we are doing; in where we are going; in how we are speaking???
We are "known and read of all men."
If I had an audience of younger women I would implore them/ beseech them to make this their goal. Let's encourage each other to 'sow to the Spirit' because we will reap what we sow.
If we have had a bad day or a failure we can start over...losing one skirmish does NOT mean we have lost the war. WE do have a new LIFE if we are HIS.

2009-07-14T18:55:00.001-07:00

It seems to be time to write a 'further word' but I'm not just sure what to write.
Over this past 10 days I think we have received about '6' inches of rain!! We may have needed '1' inch...at least that is our perception! When I look at the garden in the front of our house I see a 'pond' or maybe some would call it a 'rice paddy'! That would be okay except that in the pond are about 600 strawberry plants with ripe berries floating in the water. There are also over a dozen tomato plants, broccoli, peppers, and beautiful dahlias (a gift from my mom) which are also fighting for survival! Yesterday I knew it would rain again so I spent hours hoeing, weeding; and finally putting four wheelbarrel loads of good and 'drier' dirt around some of my precious plants...hoping to stave off the water! Dave also has dug two elaborate ditches and has a sump pump going. Will we win? Will the plants survive? Will more strawberries ripen in the place of the 'drowned' ones?
It is times like this that I truly realize how very helpless we are to 'control our lives!' Kind of like my precious brother who just cut off '3!' of his fingers on his table saw! Ouch!!!
As I was writing to a dear friend earlier this evening, we can react to disappointments in several ways. Of course we can just get angry with God. (rather common but not very smart!) We can just get depressed. (some say this is just anger turned 'inward') Again this is not very helpful, to say the least. Then again we can shrug things off and try to pretend we don't care. That sure solves the problems doesn't it!
I get the most help from having the realization that my Father in heaven has plans for me that are so much higher and farther reaching than my 'todays' and even more than just my life here on this earth. HE is training me for 'eternity' with HIM! So...when I get locked and loaded with my life down here; in HIS love HE comes along to help me look higher. My vision is so much more than a drowned garden! It is so much more than mere sympathy for my suffering brother!

It is useless to fight with our Maker; or even to be angry although we may go through a short season of those emotions. No...what we aim for is to stay in the rest of abiding/trusting in HIM no matter what HE allows or sends our way. HE is trustworthy, and because, like an excellent Parent He sees things so much more far reaching than me, His child. And He, in His perfect vision and wisdom , knows what I truly need in order to "train me the way I should go."
As His children, we have a future in eternity with Him which is not even worthy to be compared to the sufferings that we may endure here.
Let's keep going on! Keep swimming upstream! Keep bringing all of our cares to Him because HE does care for us.

summer has begun

2009-07-01T20:05:00.000-07:00

Today was one of those 'perfect weather days' for July 1st...Canada Day! ...142 years since we first became a country! I wonder how many people in Canada have thanked the Lord God for this beautiful day??
My husband has been busy keeping his '26' rows of corn...each 300 feet long...weeded and cultivated. Oh, and also the potatoes, carrots, peas, and onions. All are coming up beautifully!
We have spent many hours pulling out the weeds and it really pays off!!
Today we picked about '6' pounds of strawberries...they are ripening very well; and so very tasty!!
I am sporting a very colorful 'shiner'. Just think, I had to wait '61' years to get one like this! Last evening my grandson's bony knee connected with my cheek bone, and it was instantly puffy...even with ice. He felt bad for poor Grandma...must have said "sorry!" 3 times.
Brad & Amy headed out to the west coast this morning. They are excited to be going on a real holiday...it's been awhile. And, greatgrandma is just as excited to have them stay in her house!
So; that is doubly sweet! Bart & Bethanie plan to leave next week, so they may get there just 'after' Brad & Amy leave with their crew.
This past week I have been battling some very negative thoughts and feelings. They are very tormenting when they come. One would think that I would know enough to rebuke them in the authority of Christ right away. The deception is that they seem to be so true. I am not the best follower of the Lord. I don't already obey fully. I am not the most fruitful believer. Should I not have accomplished so much more for HIM with my life thus far??
One of the snares is "comparing myself with others" who appear to be so much more fruitful and obedient. "Dear Lord Jesus, please work whatever YOU see needs to be worked in my heart...both the 'willing' and the 'doing.'"
We are having a busy summer of bridal showers and weddings. Sarah & Jeff; Peter & Shannon; Joseph & Laura; Jessica & Jason; Charles & Kathleen. For 2 of them Dave & I are very involved. This is a huge blessing actually...to see young ones obey the Lord in this way of committing to each other and to HIM!
Our 'brother' Rob McLeod is coming on 'full time' as of this week. What a precious young man he is! It will be wonderful to see what the Lord will do in the Church in the months ahead!
I am thankful!
Jim & Vera are still looking to the Lord for a change in places to live. "Lord, please open their hearts to whatever YOU have."

2009-06-08T20:08:00.000-07:00

Well, here it is again...3 weeks since I last looked at this!!
I have started a new job!! As of May 20th I am the new Church secretary; 4 days a week, but just 9-noon. Still I am finding my life busier. I had some burden and desire to be more available to people...but I also knew that I needed the blessing of my husband. And..now I have that!
In the last 3 weeks we actually finished planting our garden! Dave planted the first corn on May 10th!! I was very concerned that it would not germinate because the weather has been so cold this spring. Still...it is all up!Yes!! So are the peas, most of the beans, and some of the potatoes, the carrots and the onions. Dave & I just love gardening and watching the things grow! Right now the apple trees are 'resplendent' in their gowns of white and pink flowers! I liken them to a bride adorned for her husband! (I really like the last 2 sentences!)
One of the believers who meets with us discovered that he has acute myelogenous leukemia! (AML) He may not survive it, but his attitude is amazing as he receives 'chemo' in the hospital. What a journey we all have on this earth! He and his wife are definitely walking through the 'valley of the shadow of death', but the peace they are experiencing is very real for all to see. Ken is actually reaching out to care for others, even while so weak himself! Of course we will all leave this earth, to be with the Lord in Whom we trust, but; what a shock when it comes so suddenly!!
I have another friend also having chemotherapy, but she is so ill prepared for this trial. She does not know the Word of God...and barely knows the Saviour as well. Instead of 'peace' she is experiencing periods of 'panic.'
I am so very very thankful that the Lord Jesus has revealed to me that I can trust in HIS Word, the Bible. What a comfort and strength! Every day He speaks something into me as I come to His Word in the morning! Lately I'm going through Psalms again. We have a heavenly Father Who wants so much to bless us, but....we must learn His ways and then be willing to walk in them. That is the only way it can really work. Thankfully He gives us the strength to obey Him!!
Dave & I had a trip north where Dave 'officiated' at the wedding of a precious couple! We did experience a mishap, in that we were rear ended while waiting at a stop light. Amazingly enough there just 'happened' to be not one, but 'three' police officers standing by the side of the road, witnessing the whole thing! We were not hurt, the car will have to be looked at, but it drives just fine! The Lord is so good!!
We also had a wonderful time at the Church picnic this past Sunday! This time, games were organized for the whole church family...and it was so enjoyable, not only to worship together, but also to 'play' together!! The Lord gave us a beautiful day...and today it began to rain heavily!
As of July 1st Dave will have a fulltime partner, in that Rob McLeod is beginning his full time capacity for the Church! "Lord, how we all need You. Only You can build the Church!"
Different precious saints....different trials...different 'cups', but all ordered by our Lord.
How I need; how we all need to have that vision controlling us! If a Father Who loves me and Who is 'all powerful' is in control, then....I do not need to fear!

Strongholds

2009-05-12T12:09:00.000-07:00

This past week I had a 'thinkin'...that's what '4' year old Krista calls it! Well, in this 'thinkin' I found myself in the salt water; swimming in the channel by the Gabriola beach where we spent so much time as teens. This channel is connected to the Gabriola Pass, where the tide runs like a river whenever it changes from the 'ebb tide' to the 'coming in tide' (as we used to call it) Lakes don't have this phenomenon but it is very evident, especially near islands in the oceans.
I was trying to reach the shore, but was almost overcome with weakness and sleepiness; so at one point quit trying. Almost immediately I found myself drifting toward the 'Pass'. This stirred me; made me desperate to try again....and soon I found myself safely on the beach!
I wanted to write this 'thinkin' down because it reminded so strongly of 'overcoming strongholds.'
We all have ways of thinking or behaving that bring us into 'defeat.' These are 'strongholds' in our lives. I am seeing that, in order to overcome these, there is the need to 'fight'. Fortunately God has given us weapons. He writes of them in Corinthians. They are 'mighty through God to the tearing down of strongholds.' How to exercise these weapons is the question.
I am finding several ways. To 'declare' strongly what God says in His Word; to call on the name of the Lord Jesus; to confess to another person and pray together; to praise the Lord by faith....these are all methods I have used to experience the liberty Christ has come to give me.
And; this is a wonderful truth to declare..."for liberty Christ has set me free!"

April Musings

2009-05-09T10:24:00.000-07:00

I am just looking through my Day Timer (yes I do need one; and I use it!). This little book helps me organize my life...a tool I would dearly miss if I lost it. Every morning when I open up the Bible I have this daytimer beside me...to write down thoughts that I get for the day or for the rest of the week...small and big assignments that the Lord seems to be impressing me to do.

In April we finished the 10 lessons from Christianity Explored. What an awesome thrill to have '3' from that class find Christ and get baptized!! Easter Sunday was such a highlight as we all heard '7' different testimonies of how God is now at work in the lives of those people! The attendance in the Church has been increasing and we continue to sense the 'oneness' and 'harmony.' Ps 133 "how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity, for there the Lord commands the blessing, even life forevermore." I believe we are experiencing this at Faith, now that the eldership is "standing fast in one spirit, with one mind, striving together for the faith of the gospel."
Dave was very occupied with the Church reno's on the main floor this month. It won't be done until the end of May...3 new rooms (including the nursery); new paint everywhere, new ceiling tiles, new doors and new flooring. It will be lovely when done...the saints are missing the lunch time after the morning meetings.
The Wednesday eve prayer continues to become more released! We are learning to pray with the Word and not just with our emotion or concern. I am seeing more and more clearly that we need to 'declare' what God says is true and not what we may be 'experiencing.' We want to 'claim' what He promises for ourselves and for our loved ones!! Sometimes more than '30' come. We sit in a big circle in order to have more intimate fellowship; and to be able to hear one another better.
We had 2 nights of granddaughers doing the 'birthday overnighters.' They are so much fun!! Hannah & Jesse, then Elanna & Melody. We love having some focussed time with just '2' at a time! Grandpa really likes it!
Our Ladies nite this month turned out beautifully!! In spite of my nervous 'second thought syndrome' there were a good number who came to Sass' home, and Shirley is a marvellous hostess!! One 'planned' testimony became '2' testimonies and the atmosphere was so free!
"Thank You Lord!"
Bart & Bethanie had their '7th' anniversary this week! Wow...the time does go by. Dave & I are so very very thankful that our 3 sons and their wives are walking with the Lord!!! All are looking for alternative housing. Jim & Vera being the most pressed. I am declaring that the Lord is able to guide them in a way they can clearly see!
On the 28th Dave's dad passed into eternity. The funeral was May 2nd in Grantsburg. What an amazing blessing it became!! The Lord anointed all 3 of our sons to speak something insightful and humorous as well; Dave who oversaw the service, was completely free and the Lord gave him great wisdom. He purposed not to deny that this was a difficult life, but the Lord also gave Dave some excellent things to say about their dad. Actually...to all '4' I think there was a sense of relief; that this test was over; and I think, maybe....they all passed! Kevin put together a beautiful medley of songs; and as a family we all sang one together at the end. "Ill Fly Away."
Dave & I had a wonderful visit also with Linnea and Diane Brask; and...Ben & Rosa blessed us by coming all the way, just to support us in prayer! Wow!!
Thus ends April and ushers in the beginning of May. Yesterday Dave & I went to T&T to pick up seeds, grape vines, a cherry tree (a very tiny 'romeo' cherry tree), dahlia bulbs (compliments of my mom), gladiola bulbs, and a few annual flowers.
Just as an eccentric note: I have now gathered about $50.00 worth of beer cans/bottles from the ditches . What an age when people think nothing of throwing 'dimes' out of their car windows!
Oh...and just a boost to my confidence that my brain does still work...I have learned the 4 chapters of Philippians!! Yes!!
On a rather humbling note: I no longer have the nice, youthful, lower blood pressure I have always enjoyed; but apparently have joined the ranks of my parents & siblings: 150/90 at the Dr's office. Ouch!

March Musings

2009-03-30T15:21:00.000-07:00

Home day!! That's what Mondays usually are for me. A time to do cleaning, laundry, baking, walking outside, maybe visiting my elderly neighbours. 'George' is amazing for almost '80' but 'Adeline' is struggling with her health and I see he is anxious for his wife of over '50 years. And, sadly, I don't see that they have a personal faith in Christ. On my last visit to them I told them all about 'Saint George'; the main saint in Greece. He was a high ranking Roman soldier; martyred near the beginning of the second century for refusing to deny Christ by bowing down to the Roman emperor's gods. I sense some resistance in 'George' to spiritual things, but not in Adeline. Maybe the Lord will grant me opportunity to pray with her in the future.
This past week we had another 'family night'...with all '17' grandchildren!! Grampa took most of the older ones for tractor rides after supper, which they loved! Some of them made pretty pictures which I can send to great grandpa Louden who just broke his hip; and to great grandma Meyer on Gabriola who is well, but loves 'art work!' We did some group singing...that was quite hilarious! but the children are learning to sing out much more than they ever did, and it is wonderful to hear them!!
Vera turned '35'...a bit of a milestone, so Jim bought her a more expensive gift...something to perfect photo results on the computer.
Dave is up to his 'eyeballs' in overseeing renovations on the main floor of the church building; but I sense that he is finding it quite fulfilling. It needs to be done as quickly as possible for the sake of the church family.
On our Christianity Explored outreach; 2 young women opened their hearts to receive the 'gift' of eternal life!! What a blessing to be a part of that! The Lord could do it without our involvement, but I know HE designs it this way, so we get even more of a blessing!
There is the problem of 'flooding' along the Red River this year. As I was walking last week I noticed that most of the culverts were completely blocked with ice, so the water could not move! This is also the problem along the river: 'ice jams' that impede the flow. What a picture!!
When the 'river out of our innermost being' stops flowing, we also experience problems! Jesus promised us in Jn.7:38 that those who believe in HIM, will have this experience, but...we all know that our sinful actions or attitudes can 'block this wonderful flow.' The blockage must be 'dug out' by our confessing and turning our heart back to our Lord, and then....how sweet!!
Because we're going through Philippians on Sunday and in our small group I want to commit much of it to memory. One thing stood out in my mind: the word 'gospel.' It is mentioned '4 times' in chapter one. These believers had the 'gospel' as their focus! Whatever happened "turned out for the furtherance of the 'gospel.' '' I could feel the Lord recalibrating my heart with this vision; and also with the words; "for me to live is Christ..." Would my husband agree if I said this about myself??
This is also the time of year for the homeschooling conference, when I stay at Jim & Vera's so they can go Friday evening and all day Saturday. So...this year there were '8' children! It''s busy, but I enjoy them so much! and...the older ones can be a huge help now! It seems that Bart & Beth; Brad & Amy, as well as other couples were greatly encouraged!
"Thank YOU Lord for YOUR faithfulness and for the fulfillment YOUR flowing life within does bring!!

2009-03-17T07:28:00.000-07:00

I am just considering what to write today. It seems difficult for me to sit here regularly and do this. Those who are computer literate have no idea how daunting it is to try and become computer savvy! I honestly have the thought at times, that it would be nice if there were no more new inventions! I guess that reveals my aging. My own mother will not look at computers at all. But; you know, as we get older it is probably better to focus on what we do know; to sharpen our skills in those directions. I believe Bruce Wilkinson calls it 'convergence'...the last stage of growth in the Christian life.
One item that has impacted me recently is a quote that Dave found. "To know God's Word is good; but to 'declare' it is stunning!" For a number of years now I have struggled with anxiety. When I was younger anxiety did not seem to be such an issue; not because I was mature, but because there were other 'giants' in the good land to be conquered then. In recent years I have had a great fear of offending my LORD; a fear that I have been 'shrinking back' from following faithfully in the ways HE has shown me. This resulted from a decision made in my life over which I had very little control; and over which I have probably spent too much time wondering, "Could I have done things differently?" In our life we cannot go back; we cannot undo decisions we made. We can 'confess' as the Lord shines...to HIM and to any we have offended, but we have to learn to 'go on!'
It is NOT His intention that we live in condemnation and I know this, but...when 'push comes to shove' ...that is exactly where I have lived at times. Those who have known me for decades would be surprised that I have struggled in this way, because 'outwardly' my life looks so obedient. But really, only each person knows their own struggles of the heart. Proverbs 14:10 says it well, "The heart knows its own bitterness/marah, and a stranger does not share its joy."
I will say that all this inner turmoil has greatly increased my appetite for the 'reality' of Christ, and in that I rejoice!! Left to myself I know that I would have remained very superficial; not caring to 'dig' out the treasures and truths in God's wonderful Book; and not needing to have nothing less than HIM!
'Declaring His Word' is powerful! I have spent so much time begging the Lord; spreading out my anxieties before Him; and that is alright but to stop at that many times leaves me still heavy in my heart. To 'declare aloud' what HE has written in how it pertains to my anxieties, now that is releasing!! To find the promises that address the concerns and speak them is awesome! It drives away the fears and replaces them with faith. Really...my heart actually feels like a tire getting pumped up! It just 'shows to go ya' that getting older never makes it unnecessary to keep 'eating and drinking' these things. I have a ton of info stored on the 'hard drive' of my mind, but it is of no help unless I access it...over and over and over!
And now, a couple of confirming verse truths...Ephesians 5:18,19 "...be filled with the Spirit, speaking...in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord, giving thanks always for all things to God the Father..."!!
Ephesians 4:15 "but, speaking the truth in love, may grow up in all things into Him..."
"Speaking! Thanking! Growing!" "Thank YOU my Father in Heaven, for training me in the way I should go; for watching every detail and for perfecting exactly what YOU see that my 'eternal' needs are!"
Oh, and the new baby's name is: "Faith Anne Louise"...and she is lovely!
I am so blessed to have all my grandchildren in my life; and that the Lord has given me the energy to enjoy them!
I am so blessed to have all our sons and their wives showing such a desire to walk with the Lord!
And I am so blessed to see the Lord drawing people to Himself in our Church fellowship!
And I am so blessed that the Lord actually allows me to have fellowship with many, which helps us to grow together!
"The whole building being fitted together, grows into a holy temple in the Lord, in whom you also are being built together for a dwelling place of God in theSpirit." (Ep.2:21,22)

2009-02-27T18:23:00.001-08:00

Wow! Getting to the end of February, and another precious grandchild added! I wonder what they will name her!!?? What a tiny little thing she is! Babies are just so amazing, and we are so thankful that Amy's labor and delivery went so well!!
I haven't written anything about our Israel trip, but I have just finished typing about 10 pages of notes that I took during the tour. Our guide, Harrison, was really knowledgeable but not yet a believer. It has been a little hard to 'feel' and 'see' the spiritual insights we would have gotten if we had had more time, and perhaps a mature believer giving the information. Still, I can dig. I can a'sk, seek, and knock.' And I remember the Proverb that says, "It is the glory of God to conceal a matter, and the splendor of kings to seek it out. "
One of the highlights spiritually for me was what they call the "Garden Tomb." This tomb was officially discovered in the 1800's. Near it is a stone hill with a formation that looks like a skull.
(?Golgotha?) It is not far from the old city wall, and there is a garden around the tomb where they have also discovered a hidden 'cistern' many feet below the surface!! It could be the garden where Joseph of Arimathea put the body of Jesus. Even it this is not the place, the atmosphere was wonderful!! The brother who spoke of the garden brought the Presence of the Lord to us, and we enjoyed a devotional time, complete with the Lord's table.
The next high light was our boat ride on the Sea of Galilee. Again, it's hard to change what a sea looks like...even 2000 years later. The owner of the boat is a Jewish brother who ministered to us with testimony and in song! So much of the Lord's doings were around this Sea, and it did seem to bring His Presence again.
We saw many other sites where either Christ or His followers or those of the Old Testament walked and lived. It is amazing to go and see the places our Bible speaks of!! It is also so encouraging to meet more of our Jewish friends...the other half of God's chosen ones!! They are so fervent in their belief of the Old Testament scriptures! For the Orthodox ones, the Scriptures affect their whole lives! Even our guide, who was more secular, is convinced that the Scriptures are accurate and true!!
In Israel you really get hit with religious fervor: Muslims, Jews, and Christians...and all are equally intense. In a more secular country like Canada we do not get the impact of this, but it is very real!! These places and people really existed, but I would say that the truth that impacted me the most is...that Christ is living within me!! To see what I did is wonderful, but...without His Presence within, all of that would be empty. When all is said and done that is the highest and the best! "Lord, please work in me an ever increasing desire to stay in fellowship with YOU."

2009-01-30T18:59:00.000-08:00

Well now, I've finished the books of Chronicles. It's hard to say which king impressed me more. I sure do love Hezekiah! He was so keen to "do what was right in the eyes of the Lord." He did extremely well and then...the Lord says; "after these deeds of faithfulness the king of Assyria came...to make war with Jerusalem." Apparently our God 'tests us' because there is no mention of Hezekiah doing anything wrong at this time. In this test Hezekiah truly is a hero! Basically he goes straight to the Lord with the prophet Isaiah and "...prayed and cried out to heaven!" And God absolutely sets him free, in that HE sends an angel who cut down 185,000 Assyrian soldiers in one night!!
Then there was also Jehoshaphat. He also "sought the God of his father..." After a number of years of doing this, he also was attacked by 'a great multitude.' The Bible says "he feared, and set himself to seek the Lord." Then he declares what kind of God he has: "...no one is able to withstand YOU!" He goes on to declare that he and his people will stand...before God's temple and in God's Presence. He cries out to God! and admits he has no power against this great multitude...but 'our eyes on upon YOU." After crying out he hears from the Lord who says, "don't be afraid...the battle is not yours but God's. Stand still and see the salvation of the Lord!" Believe/trust in HIM and you shall prosper.
So...they began to sing and to praise the Lord...and the Lord had the enemy fight each other, so much so that they were destroyed and God's people just followed along behind and picked up the spoil!..."more than they could carry away!!"
Well, it is so easy to read this...and then the Lord allowed me to 'feel' a multitude against me 'so to speak.' A series of fearful thoughts that gripped me so fiercely that I thought I may be having a heart attack; angina at least!
When in the grip of these feelings I truly sense that I have 'no power'. I know so much in my mind, but this does not bring release...only crying out to the Lord does...and even then, many times with another believer. Doing that does bring the release, praise the Lord!
Another thing I have noticed about the kings of Judah is that, even the heroes have weaknesses.
I think we can all relate to that. How encouraging is our God, to put these accounts in HIS Word! He allows us to see the 'warts and wrinkles' of HIS people, but He also shows where there is hope!
Tomorrow Dave & I will fly to the west coast to be with my family. What a nice break from freezing weather! After a week of enjoying relatives, we will fly to Israel where these kings of yesteryear lived! Yes, we are excited to go where our Lord lived; where the places we have read about for so many years will come alive to us!

the anointing

2009-01-19T14:14:00.000-08:00

So; I am still slugging through Chronicles, and seeing again that there are consequences to disobedience. God's people were actually carried away captive "because of their unfaithfulness."

I think in our experience that may look like bondage to some kind of mind set that is not true; or maybe just a brief time of lack of peace...until we come to Him in genuineness to 'confess and be cleansed'...something He can instantly do!! Captivity can also be bondage to a particular habit that brings us into defeat, until we come to the place of desperation and cry out to our heavenly 'Dad.'

He of course, wants us to be free even more than we want it! No father wants his child in bondage.

In I Chronicles 11: the Jebusites told David, "you shall not come in here!" But: "David took the stronghold!" Are we not in battle like this? There is a lie imbedded in our mind; "you will not overcome this." Yet that is not the truth, and God has put accounts like this in His Word to help us see that! He also says in the new testament that "the weapons of our warfare are mighty through God, to the pulling down of strongholds!'

David actually defeated and subdued so many enemies that his son Solomon had a peaceful reign, but...the enemies were 'subdued'; they were not gone! Is that not a picture of the old nature or the 'principalities and powers we wrestle against?'

Near the end of David's life his heart was for the building of God. He prepared all that he could so Solomon could get it done. He told his son, "the Lord has chosen you to build a house...be strong and do it!! Then he went on to say, "I 'set my affection' on the house of my God...given over and above my own special treasure of gold and silver." These verses reminded me that the Lord has chosen us!! He wants to use us to build His Church today...Ephesians calls it "you are being builded into a holy temple in the Lord... a habitation of God in spirit!!" That is more than exciting when I consider it; and even more exciting when I get a taste of HIS divine life working in me!! When we stand before Him at the judgment seat He will be looking for 'gold, silver, and precious stones.' Perhaps they are those things that we do, that we pray, that we speak which are 'in co operation with His life within us.' These things often cost us something, and some of them are 'secret, special treasures' that no one knows about except our Lord and us.

Another passage that spoke to me came out at our small group Bible study on prayer. Jim Cymbala said, "you cannot expect His blessing if you are in disobedience to Him."
The passage he used was I John 2:22-27 "the anointing ...from Him abides/lives in you...teaches you concerning all things...and now abide in HIM." "If our heart does not condemn/blame us, we have confidence before God, and whatever we ask we receive from Him because we keep/obey His commandments."
I noticed a trick, a deception that the devil uses with me and that is; even after I have confessed all known disobedience there is often still a sense of condemnation. I have become so used to this that it have almost become a part of who I am. I am thinking that this is another 'common to mankind' tactic. As I was crying out to the Lord about this, yet again, I sensed Him telling me that He loves me! That brought tears to my eyes!
He loves me, and more than anyone, I know how undeserving I am! I know where I have failed in the course of my life; sometimes through ignorance, and sometimes wilfully. And yet, He loves me! That melts me heart! "Thank YOU, Lord Jesus!"
Again I realize in a fresher way, how very dependent I am on Him for both the "willing and the doing for His good pleasure."
I love it that He is winning my heart in all my ways!! I encourage anyone who would read this, to just cry out to Him and draw near to Him with anything on your heart. He sees it anyway...and yes He still loves you and me!!

God is faithful

2009-01-13T19:07:00.000-08:00

Recently I ran across the prayer of Jabez again: I Chronicles 4:9,10 "Oh, that You would bless me indeed and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, that You would keep me from evil that I may not cause pain."
So, I prayed it again! But, I am pretty sure that 'enlarging our territory' is not very comfortable...kind of like 'taking more territory in the good land.' And we know that was a battle!
Interestingly enough many times in the book of I Chronicles the Lord notes 'men of valor'...actually 'mighty men of valor.' That phrase is repeated over and over. In myself I am not a woman of 'valor'! I really don't want to fight, but we have an enemy so I must learn to do it!
It just does not seem to get easier as I get older. Oh, the battles change maybe, but they don't stop.
And our enemy is not a fair fighter. He doesn't mind attacking when we are physically weak, or in the middle of a good night's sleep.
It certainly keeps me coming to our Lord for strength and....He is wonderful!!
He brought me to a place this morning (I Chr.5:20) "...they cried out to God in the battle. He heeded their prayer because they put their trust in Him ." In the heaviness of my heart I was able to truly 'cry out to Him!' and already this evening my heart is so much lighter! The situation I was heavy about has not changed, but I believe the Lord has heard...and He is able to do something about it!! Praise the Lord!!
He also blessed Dave & I with an unexpected visit from friends we have known for 27 years! They also are on this journey of following the Lord Jesus...such a sweet fellowship!

2009-01-01T12:17:00.001-08:00

Well, Dave & I had a great trip to the U.S., visiting with family and with friends! It always seems so refreshing to 'get away,' even for a short time! And...it feels good to get home again!
The snow is beautiful right now, so I went out and played in it today, making a big pile which I hope to transform into a snow cave for the grandchildren to play in.
During our trip I took along the 'Bible Experience,' the Bible acted out for CD listening. It has been done extremely well, with professional actors. As I listen I am almost able to put myself right there with the people and their situations. As I listen I wonder, "How is this meant to be for my instruction?"
Recently I met a family who appear to be neglecting boundaries for their sons, specifically in regards to the 'male-female' relationships. It reminded me of this scenario.
A lion is crouching in the bedroom of the son where he 'entertains' and watches movies, and uses the internet but the parents sleep and work in other parts of the home, seemingly unaware of the danger to their loved ones.
Lions are used often by God in His Word. He warns us to "...be sober, be vigilant because our adversary the devil is like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour." He tells us to 'resist him!' He warns us to be very watchful! very alert!
He relates how David (a man after His own heart) went after a lion because it had one of the sheep in its mouth!! David, in concern for the sheep, made war with that lion; took the sheep out of its mouth; grabbed it by the beard, and killed it! In my spirit I believe God has put a vision for us who watch over others! The vision is that HE is looking for believers who will do exactly what David did. (in the spiritual realm of course.) I think the lamb under attack understood hte importance of boundaries better after that!
Another account is of one of David's mighty men. You can read about it in II Samuel 23.
This man (Benaiah) went into a pit on a snowy day, just to dispatch a lion! He must have, like David, put his life on the line to do that! But, apparently he was determined that the lion would never get out of the pit and bother anyone else.
And then there is the story of Daniel who was saved from the lions because of his obedience and love for the Lord.
Sadly, there are at least 2 accounts in the Old Testament where a man was attacked and killed by a lion when he disobeyed the Lord. Will an actual lion kill us? Likely not. But what about the lion that is seeking whom he may devour?
I hope I am not being too melodramatic, but I believe I see exactly this happening among believers. We must be warned by II Peter 5:5-8 . There seems to be a pattern there. "Younger people, submit yourselves to your elders...all of you be submissive to one another...be clothed with humility...humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your cares upon Him...be sober, be vigilant...resist him (the devil)."
There is a protection in the order of the family and of the Church; there is protection in humbling ourselves as opposed to a prideful, independent, 'don't tell me what to do' attitude.
I really pray that more believers would be alert to set boundaries for themselves and for their loved ones...asking for wisdom to be firm, loving and wise all at the same time. Our sons and daughters will not be under our roof one day. May we guide them wisely. I know there are situations I would deal with differently if I could go back in time. How wonderful to have a God Who is rich in mercy!! but at the same time let's ask Him to make us vigilant, humble, and obedient to Him. And, just to glory in the victory we can have...we do have the real LION of the tribe of Judah living in us!! Yes!!!

2008-12-22T17:10:00.000-08:00

Well, here it is Monday again...a day I try to describe something the Lord has been impressing me with. But before I start that, I want to write a huge "thank YOU" to the Lord, for the baptisms of yesterday!!! "11" people obeyed the Lord, and some have amazing testimonies...no; all of them have amazing testimonies because anything GOD does in someone's heart is amazing!! I want to write a huge "thank YOU" to the Lord for the atmosphere HE is granting in the Church among us!! No, we have not arrived; but there is a sweetness and a sense of oneness in the Spirit that is drawing people to HIM.
Now, for what has 'personally' been impressing me lately...
Even though I have been reading through Judges, Ruth, and now Samuel...the truth that has been standing out in my mind is Job 13:15 "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him." Lately I have been noticing dear saints who are being 'slain' by the Lord. No; not 'physically' but in the way they think, in the way they feel, and in their desires. They may want something, even something 'good' but the Lord says, "not now," or "not for you."
It seems very clear to me that HE is testing the heart; training the heart to trust Him, no matter what happens! He is teaching each of us to come to Him like a humble and contrite child...no excuses and no blaming; no outward tantrums or even inner self pity tantrums. (you know the kind.) Only the Lord knows how many hours (days accumulated) I have wasted in those inner tantrums since I first started following Him. And yet; His life is so 'powerfully gentle' that He draws me through it all, and I find myself wanting the intimacy of His fellowship more than I want my own way; even more than my own 'good' way. He brings me to the place where I am willing to lay aside my feelings, my thoughts, and my desires: in short, to lay aside my 'soul life.' Even if doing so brings tears to my eyes, the joy of having His inward peace becomes everything! Has He not indeed called us into this fellowship?? Yes He has! And oh, to guard that relationship above all else! It is so very, very awesome!!
Another verse that goes along with this one was used by a '14' year old young man who was baptized on Sunday. (Job 2:10) "Shall we indeed accept good from God, and shall we not accept adversity?"
This surely runs against our culture which declares, "well, as long as you're happy..." Personal happiness becomes the bottom line; and yet apparently God can send 'good' and He can send 'adversity' which He then asks us to 'accept.
Hmmm; yes, and even adversity He intends to "work together for good to those who love Him..." So...either way, we win!! Well; we win after we lose if you follow my meaning. Kind of like 'death' comes before 'resurrection life'...kind of like the wheat falls into the ground and dies before it brings much fruit.
I hope this makes sense. I know what I mean, but to write it coherently and clearly is quite another matter. "Lord, please reveal this truth and work this willingness into us, that YOU would truly be our number 1."

2008-12-15T15:28:00.000-08:00

The 8N before the major surgery.

Sad Saga of the 8N tractor

2008-12-15T12:51:00.000-08:00

Dave's troubled tractor in the tractor hospital. Yes, this really is his antique! Will it be fixed?? Sequel to follow.

family night fun

2008-12-15T12:35:00.000-08:00

Brad's Grad

2008-12-14T17:04:00.000-08:00

A picture of us taken at Brad's graduation from Winnipeg Police. A very fancy dinner, complete with ice sculptures!

Ramblings

2008-12-08T14:14:00.000-08:00

In my last entry I was impressed again with the need to 'choose life!' I was also concerned with 'glitches' hindering growth, particularly in those who have been followers of Christ for years.
As I considered and fellowshipped some of this with others two (I'm sure there are more) obstacles here in North America came to our attenton: the sometimes fierce 'independence' and guarded, treasured 'privacy' most of us live in! I mean, have we ever asked a close friend or mature Christian who knows us well, if there are any character flaws they see, that are hindering us from bearing fruit? Is our home open for others to often come into? Could this lack of vulnerability & transparency point to a lack of surrender and a lack of humility??
And that brings me to a verse that impacted me again this past week while the media coverage of the 'coalition' (NDP, Liberals, & Bloc Quebecois) versus the newly elected Conservative government was roaring across this country, inflaming major outrage in ?millions of voters.
That verse is II Chronicles 7:14 "If My people who are called by My name (that today should be 'believers in Christ') will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land."
There is that word 'humble' again; and it is the first requirement in this verse. Then there is the need to 'pray,' and in that praying to seek His face, His countenance...a kind of 'beholding Him,' of focusing on Him. In that intimate fellowship with Him, His Spirit makes us aware of any thing or any attitude displeasing that we may have entertained. We are then asked to 'turn from it'...reminding me of the New Testament verses that tell us to 'put off the old man.' (Eph.4:22, Col.3:9) I suppose that would be 'confessing and forsaking.'
It concludes by then saying our Lord will hear and forgive and heal/cure our land. I have been praying for believers across this nation in the context of this verse. May the Spirit of the Lord raise up a standard against the enemy! I know there are many others praying and we have seen some interesting fallout as the coalition if not 'coming to nothing', at least is losing its hold on the country!
In reading through more of Joshua I also could see that although God said He was fighting for His people, Joshua (with the army) was required to confront the enemy, and at one point to have the captains put their feet on the necks of the enemy kings. We fight, but God wins the victory for us! They defeated '31' kings...hmmm, sounds like one for every day of the month.
And then there was Caleb at '85' years of age, still 'wholly following the Lord.' He drove out 3 sons of a giant and later was able to give his daughter an inheritance of 'springs of water...upper and lower springs!' This, when I feel the temptation to be lazy, continues to motivate me to 'follow the Lord whole heartedly,' because there is an effect and a blessing for our descendants.
I think I am too 'wordy' at times but the more I write, the more subjects come to my mind. Writing, with the thought that someone else may read this, is helping me to think more fully through what I write. Please feel free to leave comments if you do read this!
"Lord, thank You for Your work in us! Thank You for the sweet atmosphere in the Church on Sunday morning, and over the lunch together! (some lingered until 4 p.m.!)
Please let me see YOU building YOUR Church."

2008-12-03T08:31:00.000-08:00

Wed. Dec.3/08
Today, I thought I would summarize some of the things I have been musing on this past week.
At the end of Deuteronomy (30:19,20) the Lord brought to my attention these verses: "I have set before you 'life' and death, 'blessing' & cursing; therefore 'choose life' that you and your descendants may live; that you may love...obey... cling/cleave to the Lord for HE is your life and the length of your days."
What impressed me here is the 'choice' that God has given us; and the results of that choice. What 'flows out' of choosing this life benefits my descendants, and enables me to love, to obey, and to cling to the Lord. It reminded me of a place in the New Testament where Jesus says to those who made it their life work to search the Scriptures, "...these testify of ME; but you are not willing to come to ME that you may have 'life.'" (John 5:39)
At the same time that I was musing on these truths I realized there are people I know...believers in HIM...who do not seem to be healthily growing in their walk with the Lord. Some are remaining 'babes' and some, when they should be quite mature, have glaring character flaws which hinder their testimony before those who watch them. As I was praying and asking the Lord for insight it seemed HE was reminding me that; above all else, our priority MUST be to 'come to HIM for life!' ... To continue to come to Him for this 'zoe/divine life'; to allow nothing to come between this in our hearts; to 'choose' to fight anything that cuts off our fellowship with our Lord. This echoed in my heart over and over as I pondered these verses, and my experience with the Lord over the years. I realized that this is the kind of 'zero tolerance' we need to exercise!
But, in order to have this relationship of intimacy with HIM, I was reminded of the ongoing need for complete humility and willingness to keep coming and to keep confessing. This is what enables me to stay 'up to date' as I like to call it; to purpose to have an 'up to date' conscience void of offence before God and before man.
Wow! 'Before God, and before man! This definitely requires humility! I cannot ignore the people in my life, and my relationships with them yet say all is well between the Lord and me. I must do what I can; as much as depends on me, to 'live peaceably with all.'
And, how much more could be said of this.
How I thank HIM for the times HE has made me desperate enough to do whatever confessing I have needed to do, because I must have HIS fellowship in my heart and I fear what my fallen nature could do if left unchecked. I praise HIM today for the vision to come to HIM in HIS Word, for 'life!' At times I do still get distracted, but I praise Him; He brings me back to this central vision.
Again I 'choose life' and again the divine life He flows into me enables me to love Him, to obey Him, and to cling to Him.

Forty Years of Faitfhfulness

2008-11-24T09:17:00.000-08:00

As this past weekend marked the end of our 'fortieth' yearsof marriage, I felt that was quite significant, which doing a search in the Bible for the word 'forty' verified.
In Genesis it rained for '40' days and '40' nights; also Isaac was married when he turned '40.'
In Exodus Moses fled from Egypt when he was '40', was called by God (via the burning bush) to return after being in the desert for '40' years; then lived another '40' years in the wilderness with the people of Israel. His brother Aaron died on Mt Hor on their '40th' year there.
In Numbers the spies searched the land for '40' days
In Deuteronomy, in '40th' year, in the '11th' month Moses spoke to his people; reviewing the last '40' years. "These '40' years the Lord your God has been with you; you have lacked nothing." "You shall rememberthat the Lord your God led you all the way these '40' years...to humble you and test you, to knowwhat was in your heart..."
There are many other refences to the number '40' in the Word: Eli judged Israel for '40 years, Goliath challenged Israel for '40' days, King Saul reigned for '40' years and so did David, Solomon, Johoash, & Joash.
Jesus fasted '40' days and '40' nights (as did Moses), and after being resurrected HE showed Himself for '40' days until HE ascended back into heaven.
"Forty": a complete period of testing!
When I married those many years ago, I was confident that I was marrying the one God had chosen for me! We were believers and again, I was confident that we would have a wonderful life together, walking in the Spirit!
What I did not know was the 'cost' of walking in the Spirit. I had no idea then, how damaged my soul was. I had no idea that my dear husband had issues in his own heart that needed healing and restoring. And I had no idea that 'to walk by the Spirit' involved complete surrender to God's thoughts, God's feelings, and God's choices for me. If I did have a tiny vision of this, I certainly did not know what it looked like in my daily life.
However, our faithful Father in heaven was about to show me; little by little and situation by situation. I have become very clear that believers in the Lord Jesus have a Father Who knows exactly how to "train up a child the way he/she should go..." HE knows exactly what 'tailor made' situations each of HIS children need, in order to grow up to be just like HIM!
One of my biggest tests has come when I was pretty sure that my husband made a wrong decision...one that profoundly affected me! After many appeals to him the door still remained firmly closed. The question then for me was: "how do I find peace where I am?"
What a battle against 'accusation in my mind'; against confusion; against condemnation within!
But, on the positive side; what desperation for reality in the Word and in my daily life!
I have 'needed HIM' to be my daily bread, during the day and during the night...and HE has been faithful!!
Some of the spiritual warfare we find ourselves in, is not so clear. Therefore it is not so 'easy' to resist our enemy. I thank the Lord that HE is fighting for us, and HE is praying for us, and HE will never leave or forsake us!! HE must know that 'warfare' purges and purifies the heart.
In Job 13:15 it says; "...though HE slay me, I will trust in Him."
I have to admit there have been many thoughts, emotions, and choices in my mind that have not been one with the new creation, one with the 'new man.' To die to these is painful, especially the ones that 'look good or right'. But the 'new creation in Christ' is so much more than 'good or right'...the new creation is a completely new life; a completely new Person, and this Person is the One Who desires to be lived out through us day by day and 'situation by situation.'
I can co operate by coming to Him in the Word, and feeding on what He says there, but He is the only One Who can take those Words, those truths, and make them real in me!
Today, I thank Him for doing that!
When I look back to the pictures of '40' years ago, I can hardly remember those two people.
God has been so faithful to take Dave & I, and keep us close to Him in our earthly walk. He has blessed us more than I could imagine with peace in our relationship together; and with the shared joy of seeing our children 'walk in truth'; plus the added blessing of enjoying many grandchildren who are also learning what it is to know the Lord Jesus.
"Through all the seasons of life, God is faithful."

a strengthened heart

2008-11-17T10:39:00.000-08:00

Apparently blogging is supposed to increase the writing ability, so I'll try again.

This past week was a 'heavier hearted' one. It seemed the loudest voices I heard were negative, critical, accusing, discouraging ones, which of course affected my mood. When I tried to pray, it just did not seem to go farther than the floor in front of me. My faith just seemed to leak away.
Even though I spent time in the Word as usual, there was a heaviness; a pressing in my heart that would not leave.
On Sunday I rose to spend time with the Lord in the Word, as usual; but this time I was 'hungrier', more desperate to meet with Him! I pleaded with Him to reveal Himself to me...and HE was so faithful.
At times I read through the Psalm of the day, and then add '30' and read that one, and so on through the book. When I got to Psalm 46 I recalled committing it to memory at one time, so it was wonderful to refresh myself in the truth there. Writing cannot convey the 'touch' of the Spirit within the heart of another, but I will try to relate a bit of what HE touched my heart with. He truly 'met with me.'
God is my refuge and my strength! He is a very present help in trouble, in adversity, in a tight spot! So; I will not fear even though the earth be moved; altered; and though the mountains be carried into the sea; and though its waters roar! Even though many situations around me are shaken and moved I will not fear! Why?...because there is a river!! There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God, the holy place of the Most High!
And Jesus said, there is a river in me!! Out of the innermost part of my being where the Most High lives, there is a stream flowing between Him and me! Wow!! God is in the midst of His holy city...He also is in the midst of me!! And He will not be moved!! He will not be shaken!! I am safe in Him.
The Psalm goes on to say; "the nations raged, the kingdoms were moved; He uttered His voice, the earth melted." All our Lord needs to do it 'utter His voice.' All I need is to have Him 'utter His voice' to me, and all the negative melts away.
The Lord of hosts, the Lord of armies is with us! He is our refuge, our border crossing check point; and nothing gets past Him!
He is in charge of all things; of all people. So He ends the Psalm with, "Be still, relax, and know that I am God. I will be exalted..."
Praise the Lord! These words 'uttered into me'; 'flowed into me' from Him Who sits on the throne, lifted the burdens from my heart.
Someone said, "If you were hit with a semi truck you would definitely know it. How about when you meet up with the God of the universe!" Thankfully Lord, You are gentle, yet powerful!

faithfulness

2008-10-22T09:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I had an encouraging experience! In the morning I had a good time with the Lord; giving Him the details of my day...who I would meet, etc.
I had several places to go in the city. My second appointment was cancelled, so I called the third person who is a widow. She had some hesitation in her voice when I checked to see if this was a good time to visit. It turned out that she had an appointment herself, and all her 'rides' were unable to take her. Just before I called, she as she was thinking to call a taxi! As it turned out we were able to have a very sweet visit...and I was able to take her to her appointment and home again. We both saw it as God's faithfulness in caring for her...an elderly widow with health problems. "God is a defender of widows." (verse from the Word) This experience reaffirmed to me that God's Word is so true...how HE cared for her!
Later I ran into two of my 'sisters in the Lord.'...completely 'by chance' some would say. Again we had a heart warming visit! that the Lord had spontaneously arranged!